I found myself having some medical issues a few weeks ago, which led me to needing surgery last week. I haven't gotten the results from the biopsy, but I've been spending a lot of time thinking about the possible outcomes.
Quite obviously, I really don't want to find out I have cancer. I've been through that once, and once was too much. Unfortunately, as hard as I try, I can't seem to stop myself from playing scenarios in my mind.
I suppose I should admit to not being opposed to having some small thing wrong; I'd like not having a uterus and ridding myself of the discomforts that come with it. But I found myself wondering what my family would do if it turned out I was sick. Those that live near me have very little to do with me. Would an illness change things?
I remember when my aunt was diagnosed with brain cancer more than a decade ago now. I drove straight through from Florida to Maryland when she had surgery. My work schedule didn't allow me to stay long, less than a day actually. All I knew though, was that my aunt was sick, and I wanted her to know I loved her.
My dad's side of the family has been told of my recent medical issues, and are praying. They drop me a line on Facebook to let me know they're thinking of me. My mom's side doesn't even know I needed to see a doctor let alone surgery and a biopsy. Most of them live less than half an hour from me but we haven't spoken in months. Would that change if the diagnosis is serious?
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