My head is swimming. So many people, some I haven't talked to in several months, have been sending messages of support, texting and calling since this mess began. Thanks to you all, I appreciate your willingness to stand behind me!
I'm still so blown away by all this. It amazes me, though I'm not sure why, how quickly people can go from friends to enemies. After being asked for documentation to disprove some of the slander being spread, I started reading back on some fb messages we'd sent back and forth. I haven't kept everything, though in retrospect I wish I had, but the conversations were always kind and supportive. It's hard to see so much lost because someone, (I wish I knew who) decided to be so malicious. To twist something around to hurt another on purpose is simply beyond my comprehension. I just don't think that way! Perhaps that's why, despite prompting by some, I can't bring myself to denounce her. I have no choice about what may happen legally; I'm being counseled to prepare for the worst fight of my life. However, I can't help but wonder how things might be different had she chosen not to close the door of communication. Rather than share some concerns she was having with me to me, she went to a private group of others. I wonder how much of this disaster could have been diverted had there been honesty rather than secrecy.
She is someone I respect. Yes, I said that in present tense. Had I thought for one microsecond asking for help with my release (and yes, I have proof of that asking) could have done the damage I'm being told it caused, I would not have. But I'll say again, I don't think that way! She has given up a lot to fight for others. Whether her motives are for the children or not, think of the countless hours one would need to invest to have accomplished so much. Regardless of motive, that alone deserves respect! Would this have caught the public eye without her endless toil? My guess is probably not.
It's difficult to relinquish all hope of regaining someone I valued as a friend. This cult has destroyed so much already. But there is no way to recover from such deviation, for either of us. Both reputations will bear these scars forever. But always in my prayers I will be saying "take them down, my friend, take them down"!
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